Who am I? Where do I belong?

I hope that you are all well. My trip has been really intense and useful for Speaker's Corner. This is more or less, the last leg of the Research & Development before I pull together. After spending some time with Ron Athey, I realsied that I had been putting alot of pressure on myself to know what it is, when actually I wouldn't know exactly what it is until I had completed all the activities which I named in my application. The one I am completing now is 'Staying in the home of 12-15 Iranians', getting to know them and interviewing them... some of them are in LA and some in London. So I have been moving around a lot. My stuff is in more than one place. This is all part of it. Video and photography have been my main mediums. This has been a personal, social and political investigation. I am reconstructing my own identity, reuniting with people I haven't seen since 10-14 years, and slowly piecing it together. I have 2 weeks space from Artsadmin, and I am currently thinking how to best use this space, and will know by 12 Sep which is when I am back. I need to sit in a space with all my stuff around me and create a 'story board', though it is not linear or textual necessarily. The piece of work I am making is interdisciplinary and intercultural, and things are coming together slowly but surely. Process has been a big part of it, and I understand that I may not yet have the vocabulary to best communicate this at present because I am right in it.

More than anything, I need to:
stop pleasing others and worry about their comments, have fun, and have faith in myself. I know it will come together but maybe not when other people expect it of me. I have been practicing it regulary from December...I live it...My life and art are one as arrogant as that sounds; but maybe my practice is not studio based but project based...I am asking all these questions...It will come together...We all work in different ways, and I can't deny where I come from...that informs where I am going...

I have lots of images to share with you, but am moving around a lot...however when I get back

All my love

Shabzxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx