thankyou Biggi and thank you all

i enjoyed our chat last night too Biggi and through out the week...I don't feel like I was very articulate with a head of thick soup!! Thanks for your support and encouragement..it's become resoundingly clear to me the bad habit i have of undercutting myself and my work through apologies, un-ended sentences and the like..To stand up and be counted and let the work stand alone without justification / supplication / intervention / bowing and scraping ad infinitum!

shame and being silenced are ironically some of the themes I am currently exploring - and for me I need to make sure its not just 'therapy' !

thank you Jon for your inciteful observation(s)...humour...rapport...the scratching of the floor (video footage to be posted soon...!) and wamrth....+ lest we forget the impromptu piana recitation of my text..disgusting dirty bitch etc..you are a natural performer. Can I post the sound recording (if I find out how?)

thank you both for your generosity of spirit - and that goes for everyone else..

I finally left the studio after Jon and Biggi's help with clearing up at around 5pm...me and Biggi stayed for a drink till 8pm..at which point we said our good byes and I hobbled back wheeling my bike home precariously balanced with jumble for the car boot...

Lots more thankyous.....and dot dot dots..

FRANKO - thank you for facilitating this whole process...the week worked on many different levels for me...it was powerful and exhausting..and its effect will resonate on for some time to come...and for the shared meals, the espressos, Beuy - ball - meditation..Rothko and his innocence..your openess and honesty..

Harminder - I hope that your friend is ok and sorry I didn't say good bye - didn't realise till after that you were leaving then..good luck with the up and coming performance. And Wil - thanks for your feedback on tuesday and will see you at your private view...if not before in your studio. I'd like to talk more about how people and objects occupy and relate to space - emplace..it is part of my current research.

I am planning a work in progress in London on or around 12th June - details to follow. Put in diaries..I am doing some experimentation with composer Rob in an empty to flat next week and will post details if i decide to present or get feedback...or for people to book 'appointments to view'

Tom and your attention to details...your classical reduction...your photogenic chair sitting..your gentle containment..Jacob - i like your sparkly engergy and the comments you made to peoples' work..any feedback?

thank you to all those I asked to walk backwards and reminisce....Biggi, Zaza, Tom, Rachel, Jon - thanks for giving me windows into your intimate spaces...it is helping me find ways of framing and getting at the material I am exploring.....more to follow..visits still to come..Zaza - your interview was visceral and poetic - thanks for entering into the spirit of it..

Bits from the game (by Jon, Biggi, Tom, Jacob, Zaza, moi):

IF I WERE YOU THEN IT WOULD BE VERY DIFFERENT FOR ME
THEN THE WINDOWS WILL OPEN BY THE NUMBER 73
IF I WALK BY THE CANAL HUMMING
THEN SHORTS WILL BE RED
IF I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU
'THEN' SEEMS LIKE A DIFFICULT WORD TO START A SENTENCE WITH
IF ONLY I HADN'T SPILT THE CHEMICALS ON THE FLOOR THIS MORNING
THEN HE HAD A WANK
IF I HADN'T BEEN BORN
THEN PEOPLE MAY REALISE THERE IS NO POINT IN SHOUTING AND FIGHTING
IF I WASH MY EYES IN WATER OF YOUR THROAT
THEN THERE WAS ONE!
IF THE FRANKO B MENTORING SCHEME WOULD NOT EXIST
THEN THE UNIVERSE WOULD NOT BE EXPANDING
IF PEOPLE WOULD SIT DOWN AND COMMUNICATE IN A GENTLE MANNER LIFE WOULD BE MUCH CALMER
THEN AGAIN I'M PROBABLY WRONG
IF ONLY I KNEW WHAT I WANTED
THEN I'LL WEIGH OUT PARTS OF YOUR BODY TO 21 GRAMS
IF WISHES WERE HORSES BEGGARS MIGHT RIDE
THEN THE PLANET EVOLVED INTO A NEW PERFECT UTOPIA

Images etc to follow - as soon as I've found the damn lead!

Lisa
kissesxxxxx