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i think we should still meet in november, but i have decided to cancel the show. i have told francesco. i feel that the group is falling apart and i don't want to do the show if its going to be like this, it's not going to work.
x franko.
x franko.
posted by de-mentored at 11:15 am
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Hi Franko
That is a shame but I agree something was not quite right in the group to be able pull together a show by then, it's not so far with christmas in the middle which as you say always causes a lull whatever your beliefs...
It was good to see everyone on Friday and thank you for your hospitatlity. It was a shame that things felt a bit heavy somehow. I think it would be good for the group to meet more before the pressure of a show and I think Friday has certainly made me think a great deal about what I want from the blog, and what I can offer, and how that sits with what other people want and need from it. I don't know I have drwan any conculsions yet but I know that it is so very important to me to have the group there, not as a social group, but as people who i feel understand me and where i come from with my work. It gives me a strong sense of place, especially in keeping my work a priority in my mind while I have a busy job. I worry that this makes me selfish but I hope that I give something when i can and am a part of the group. For me it gives a recognisable space to carve time out for my own thoughts and to listen and think about others'. i think sometimes I have not responded to posts because I don't know how to: the questions are too big for me towrite a response, or perhaps to be honest there are subjects I don't have as such a priority in my mind and one has to prioritise to an extent. I also am not looking for confrontation and sometimes I fear that this is where a response could go. This is different to debate of course, but I don't yet feel safe to open up. It's hard in text because there is not all levels of communication at play, things become set in stone and miscontrued. I don't have the emotional energy for this. I would like to meet more and try to unite and find a happy way of working together. i think it would be good to go away together and work, as we did with Wysing. this is so important to me because that week has really fed me this year, though I haven't yet felt able to share the new work yet, plus the usual web problems blah blah blah. when I have an hour to fit something in and stuff doesn't work it ends up being problem solving rather than contributing! So a week when i can carve out spave and feed the group and feed my work so for now at least it doesn't peter out because it is everything of who I am even when I am not working on it directly.
Slightly aware that this is a total ramble but i'll post it anyway, come back to it later, and hope we can all continue.
Mads x
Just read that back and I am rambling completely... oh dear what have I just written in my work emails if that's he head i'm wearing today!?!
mx
Hi
Friday was difficult, like the first day at school again in a way. I was surprised at the the lack in some quarters to the group cause.
I understand your resoning to cancel the show (for now?) Franko, but it feels like this is the easy option for everyone, including the naysayers and those feeling distant from a group dynamic. I always imagined it would be diffcult to pull our work into one space, but I had hoped that we could work through that. I am not partiularly worried about a 'show', but i think we need a framework to draw us together, even if it is a series of meetings with some aims laid out. The process is where we learn, and a show would have been the by-product of that. Surely the is some hope that we can do this?
But, as always, i will defer to your wisdom Franko,,,and i agree with Mads on the timing. It was going to be tight.
It was great to see everyone!!!
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